Skully

My best friend Jake committed suicide this monday. November 24th. He was an amazing friend, and was one of the sweetest people I have met in a long time. I cant talk about this much longer or I might go into hysterics again. He will be missed so much. I love you Skully.

R.I.P.
Jake aka Skully
I love you.

Ugh

UGH!! Major headache!!!! I seriously dont know what to do. I keep moping around like a loser. I need to get up off my ass and do something but I cant get myself to do anything! I'm really upset because once again the only conclusion I have come to is that i am in dire need of a boyfriend. But life doesnt always give you what you want. No boys here have caught my eye. And there just so happens to be some serious truth behind the saying of, "all the good guys are either gay, or taken." So much is going on lately, LVA auditions are just around the corner, plus I have homework, tests, and holidays to help prepare for. All of this is just like a big slap in the face. I feel even worse because yesterday one of my really good friends got on my nerves and I exploded at her! I have a horrible problem with my temper sometimes, but there is absolutely nothing I can do to change myself. I feel so horrible about it because I made her cry! I am a good person, and basically a big fucking mush ball! I cant belive I said that yesterday, its just there were so many other things that were getting on my nerves. I feel like such an awful person. Now she says she's going to sit at a new lunch table at school tomorrow. Ugh. I seriously feel like I am in the middle of a "Fuck you" sandwich. And I'm the meat on the inside.

Haircut!!!

I just got my haircut woop woop!!!! I dont know how I am this excited but I am!!! It looks adorable:)

Things we cant live without...

What can I say? Life sucks. The only thing that's keeping me from going completely insane is music. Its my little escape from the everyday drama that goes on. I can just lay on my bed, put my ipod on and just get lost in all the melodies, guitar riffs, figuring out the complicated drum patterns, and trying to find the meaning behind the lyrics being sung. I could be listening to my music one minute, and then glance over at the clock and realize that I have been listening to music for 3 hours! Honestly, I dont know what I would do without my ipod and cd collection.
Michaela and I were at lunch, and we were all discussing the things that we couldnt live without. I automatically said music. If I didn't have it for even one week, I would seriously shoot myself in the head. Kamry said sugar! So typically Kamry:) But the one thing that we all agreed on, that we would go crazy without is our cell phones!!! Ohmygod I would be completely lost without my phone, my whole life is on that stupid little thing!!! My pictures, phone numbers, videos, music, a whole crap load of stuff! I'm sure we all have things we cant live without. If you read this leave me a comment telling me what YOU cant live without!...

Oh "Boy"

What can I say? School sucks ass. Things have been going by sooo slow lately. I dont know what is wrong with me lately. In all my classes, except geography and guitar, I just seem to be moping around. The only reason geography isnt boring is because I have Michaela in that class, and we dont really seem to do anything except sit around and gossip about the latest Twilight news; and guitar, is just guitar. Basically my class on life, but I do have my super hot crush in that class so that is a plus. I dont know why I seem to be acting so unhappy lately. But lately I have only come to one conclusion. I need a boyfriend!!!
Whenever I even think about going up to the guy I like and telling him how I feel, I seriously feel like I am about to barf. And lets just say that wouldnt be such a pretty sight. I want my crush to know how I feel about him, I'm just worried about what he'll think. I hate it when people say that its easy to go up to a guy and spill your guts out to him about how you have though he was the hottest thing since Synyster Gates for the past three years!! Yeah...not so easy. How would you like to be the one going up to the cutest guy in the school and laying everything out on the table for him to see? I dont think you would like it so much.
I seriously think me and him were meant to be though. Even my friends say it too. We both play the guitar. We both wear lots of black, like black nailpolish, listen to heavy music, and enjoy laughing at Aaron for wearing kitty socks. Lmao. I wonder what it would be like if we went out though. I can only imagine what some of my friends would say. They would think I was a freak, but I think that he's perfect so they would just have to get over that! I dont know what to do as for me trying to tell him how I feel, maybe have a friend tell him for me, I just dont know what to do yet. Michaela, if you are reading this, which most likely you are, I think we both know who that certain friend is....

New Alternative Press - Why?! Why?! Why?!

Oh. My. Gosh. WHAT WAS ALTERNATIVE PRESS THINKING?! They put Fall Out Boy on the cover of their new issue! Ugh. Why?! Why?! Why?! But....the good news is that you could choose between a cover that says Fall Out Boy Rules!....Or Fall Out Boy Sucks! Wonder which one I chose.......Neither! I am a subsciber so I just so happened to get both. Grr Alternative Press! Grr!
Now, I am going to go on my little 15 second rant about how I hate Fall Out Boy.....Their music is pointless! They have no talent! The only talent they have is Pete Wentz because he's just so damn SEXY!....moving on....oh yeah, all their songs sound the same! Their music used to be good, then they let it get to their heads! They just want more screaming girls! They didnt pay attention to how their new album sounded before they put it out! They released two albums within two years! Too quick! All the good bands can take up to two to three years to complete one new album! They wouldnt know talent if it came up and bit them on the ass!!!!!.......I feel better now :)
I am sorry if I have offended anyone that likes FOB. I just seem to have anger management issues when it comes to them. My apologies.

Avenged Sevenfold not coming back to Vegas!!!!!!

Noooooooo!!!!!!!! Avenged Sevenfold isnt coming back to Vegas again!!!! ='( My favorite band isnt coming back! They haven't been back to Vegas in two years! The last time they came back was October 31st 2007! Oh god I am so depressed. This sucks!!!!! My mom wouldn't even let me go to the Chiodos and Alesana concert! Now she wont let me go to the Underoath concert! Ugh! Ugh! UGH! Now my favorite band in the whole wide world isnt coming back here! Right now is not a good time for bands. How upsetting.