Ugh

UGH!! Major headache!!!! I seriously dont know what to do. I keep moping around like a loser. I need to get up off my ass and do something but I cant get myself to do anything! I'm really upset because once again the only conclusion I have come to is that i am in dire need of a boyfriend. But life doesnt always give you what you want. No boys here have caught my eye. And there just so happens to be some serious truth behind the saying of, "all the good guys are either gay, or taken." So much is going on lately, LVA auditions are just around the corner, plus I have homework, tests, and holidays to help prepare for. All of this is just like a big slap in the face. I feel even worse because yesterday one of my really good friends got on my nerves and I exploded at her! I have a horrible problem with my temper sometimes, but there is absolutely nothing I can do to change myself. I feel so horrible about it because I made her cry! I am a good person, and basically a big fucking mush ball! I cant belive I said that yesterday, its just there were so many other things that were getting on my nerves. I feel like such an awful person. Now she says she's going to sit at a new lunch table at school tomorrow. Ugh. I seriously feel like I am in the middle of a "Fuck you" sandwich. And I'm the meat on the inside.